It has been awhile my "diary," and since I have been away, there has been too much drama for my body to comprehend.
First of all, I lost a friend due to the causes of psychotic bitchiness
Second, people are starting to take sides
Third, I STILL haven't seen the new Star Wars
Fourth, the earlier mentioned psychotic bitch has crossed the line of acceptable bitchiness.
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To start my story of how I named her the psychotic bitch, I will call her... Sarah.
You also need to know some background information to actually feel what I felt at the moment.
My best friend, lets call her Danielle, lost her mother about a year ago to pancreatic cancer. She was not only a mother to two biological daughters, I also thought of her as a mother to me, so her loss took a toll on a lot of people around her. Now, Danielle isn't too outspoken to people about this, but it has been hard on her for the past year, and she doesn't know what is happening to her mind and her body.
ONTO THE STORY!!!!!
So Danielle and I go to Starbucks all of the time, and we do invite people, but since we go all of the time we just allow people to ask if they can go with us. Literally, it is like we live there nowadays.
One day, we are at Starbucks with a study group when I decide to check my snapchat for a small break, and what I see on there enraged everyone at that table of 4 people.
Sarah posted three photos that she was done with "those hoes that never say hi anymore."
She has basically been dating everyman at our school, and when she does she doesn't talk to us. ALSO, when we do invite her she either makes it clear that she doesn't want to come or she is busy with a guy. We just stopped inviting her.
My friends, being the stupid ones, decide to post some vague f-you on their story also.
At the end of the night, we were basically not friends anymore.
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In a couple of weeks, my BEST friend came back from Mississippi for a day, and she was able to see us. We were planning something with her, and decided to invite Sarah, but of course she couldn't make the time to get over her petty self and come say hi to her, to the girl we see at most twice a year. That day we learned that she called Danielle "the worst" and another friend that was at the study group "bitch," but we also learned that she doesn't mind me that much, and only feels awkward to talk to me because I am close friends with the other two girls.
*** WARNING (some soap opera shit is about to go down)***
Just the other day, she decides to rant on snapchat yet again. Because she has obviously learned that the answer to all of her problems is to rant about people who are not following her. As the only one currently following her, I was the person who saw this. Apparently Danielle smiled at her in the hallway because they made eye contact.
She was saying "why do you think that since you haven't talked to me in weeks you can just smile at me," and stuff like that.
THAT isn't even the end of it.
At the end of her last rant she had the f*cking guts to say "I hope your mom is proud of you."
We call her up, and it is confirmed that it is about Danielle. Danielle is on the verge of an anxiety attack, sobbing so much she can't even breathe anymore.
The next thing Sarah said to me personally, "oops. I said it, but I meant it"
"she wants to live a life people would be proud to look at.
My question for Sarah is, why do you think that people will look up to you for that? Do you honestly think that mentioning someone's passed mother is okay? Do you think your parents, future children, your friends, or your siblings would be proud of not only that but also losing your virginity in the back of a mini cooper, or even stealing one of your friend's crushes when they looked to you as a confidant. Does your best friend even know that you make fun of him for being your best friend when he isn't around.
What Danielle did wasn't being two-faced, what you are currently doing to yourself is two-faced.
You need to grow up, and look how people see you. You need to know that people have sensitive feelings, and it isn't bad to be "all up in your feelings."
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Not only that, but apparently she is also going through a Britney Spears phase, and shaved one tiny block of their hair, and wants to shave it completely off.
I also recently found out that she blocked me on all social media for pointing out what she is doing, and for trying to help her look better in the eyes of society.
So, whatever. I tried, and tried; I just can't do it anymore.
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Rant. Over.
